Fierce Anger

It just another inch of a nail gets to the most sensitive of thin layer of anger. A step to freak all the neighborhood for the most anger that ever happened, the madness of a unconsciousness state of mind. Breaking the cage and a second to unleash the leashed lion, forget all the rules and use all the manifestation of freedom speak and curse.

Never like this state but just people wants it happen, wants it to take place in every step of life, to watch the most craziest level of animal inside the human body.

Some people consider themselves as the most superior race on this earth without taking the time to stand in front of the mirror and talk to the echoing walls. These people act like they know what happen, and what should be do and say and see the problems as their early breakfast in the morning. Another perfection of an imperfection creature, for the justification on their own mind that they are better even holier than others.

Kill the devil on the run, have no mercy, and hear what will they cried about, what will they scream about.

Fuck this, I don't need this shit anymore, this is getting me to deeper and put me in the hole of darkness......

Bending String.....

EMPTY

its like fall into hole of 6 feet under ground or stand behind bars and surrounded by dark cemented walls, I'm almost losing my imagination of what I should do in moment like this. Nor games or Internet browsing amuse me, not even 300 channels from both TVs. I know this will happen next after one mistake to another, bounce to one point of emptiness to another.

Can't get rid this thought out of my mind, it keeps awake me even when I'm in my maximum consciousness. I need it, I need it back. I need to get it back, just what should I do to get it back to me?

I screwed up, a biggest mistake in my life. Letting it GO. For so many years, it was my dream, but now its gone.

I need a chance, I'll create a chance, but how do I know that it will give me the same chance?

Sunday....

Sunday, 24.31. A bit late, but its not just about to improve any writing skills because I don't have any skills in writing, it just put it that way for any words that I know and I don't even care about any structure or grammar for the need as the technical in writing. It makes everybody reduce their will to put words or feel.

I think I lost something, because sometimes I realized that I've been silent for some moment for no reason. I didn't want to talk nor laugh. What could be a good deed that I should do to get rid of this unknown temporary loss moment?

Finally Happy

That message truly a beautiful one, mention about how happy they are for the absent of a trouble maker.

That's good.

Quicksand

It's about time to get to know everything that matters to each situation.
A little bit surprised finding out that I had been in a situation that could make me in deep problem, deeper than I've been facing now. That smile, laugh, smooth talking, a welcome greetings, all fake from the people that I admired at that time.
May be its a sin, the sin that attacking me back, after what I did. But what I couldn't stop think, is why those people was keep smiling and not showing what that person was talked about when they met the person that they dislike.
Damn, I was in a house that almost I considered as another place I could sit and talk comfortably without any worry or fear as they were a family.

Quicksand, a description of a situation, if I didn't take any of risk to get out or leave the place, I'll be in a deep problem without knowing that I could be drowned little by little, feel comfortable but with hate around me from the people that i thought they accept me.

Bye