One of the moment that you will feel happy is the moment that you feel very free on what you are or who you are. Is it light or is it going to be hard, the option will be in your hand. I learned a lot by people around me, by put eyes on what they do and what they say. But is it possible to have people understand for what is in your attention? or is it going to be better if people do know that inside your head just another rubbish which just come and go like the wind blows. I saw many monsters, in form of many manifestations and possible that some of us just turned to be one. These monsters are eating each other, one way to another they eroded a shape of life. Then the future become an advance question to be answered by all of us, what will be become after this, some how we try to ignore it because we will say "it's nothing, we aren't suppose to think about it since we don't have to". Another justification on stupidity of human being. Then here we are, still walking on the same pattern of pathetic life, the life which bring us a disaster because of our own greed. I will say, i have enough but my life is not stop here. Then i said, let's carry on, well the life still asking where i want to go from here.
To many questions to ask but little answers to find out. Search for the better form of shape for being a human. The monsters still look around while their hands are grabbing lot lots of sources of life. No haze can stop them, no fire can burn them, no sins can fear them and there will be hell can remind them.
I have a monster live inside of me, a monster that wants to go out and get free. And i will come to other thoughts in my mind to get rid of this monster and i can have my life back as i want to.

Back to The Old Hobby

I heard that music can do lot of magical things to some people. Haha... did i say it right? Some say that music can kill you but music also brings you to live. I'm not an expert but i can do one or two keys with guitar. I just bought this Electric guitar, not so expensive but brand new and it has a great loud sound on the amplifier. Epiphone (Gibson brothers) haha... i can't reach that guitar since it will like killing me with the price.
So, i'm starting from zero again after years not play any good music (or i haven't play any)........
I have so many spare time, so many licks to play and so many music to hear. Wish i can play better...
And why i choose guitar? hmmm......i think it's pretty cool to play guitar and plus you can play where ever you want since i can bring the guitar anytime i want and anywhere i want. But not with these two ladies, they will remain home.

I might can't play as the other player, but i'm still happy the way i play... hahaha... for me music is about how you can be yourself and let it out by music....

that's all folks... enjoy the ride and play some good music or just here one......

end of the year

So, it's the end of the good year i guess, well i won't say anything bad for the process of live, it's kind a bad habit. I have a couple of good Golden Retriever, a nice old car, a couple of persian kittens and lot more friends, i have a good life but apparently i lost my job. Hiks... that's sucks don't you think.......
It is life, up and down, can't just stay at one point, always change and pass the time that won't stop for a bit moment of happiness.
i need to be more hard on my life, so be it.......

happy new year, when no body can ever guaranty how would life will be....

Rise and Fall

Call me freak, some of you might consider as it is. No body care about it, it just another call from other mouth or a person from south. Between the air, sometime you can feel the water flows just as ghost turn you to white while some kids just eat their ice cream... geesss.... you're patethic.
I'm on may way to a joyful field, always looks green and flat and some birds just claps their wings through the air.... hey just look what the heck they've done... they just kids you around while saying foolish man.
Above the sky, a window just opens and allows all wind drag the red ribbon.... dog's barking and the bird's singing. I took a slow walk through the alley, i saw green light just as bright as moon at night but seems like it just lightin' up the road i took. Feels not that free to walk but the alley almost end, even i could saw car full with daily traffic. And it was white light when i found lot of blood on my shirt and hands... it was not normal since i didn't remember what was going on. A woman came to me and saw me with strange eyes, seems like accused me for any crime did... life indeed free with eye look. I feel nothing and saw enpty space around my head.... my eyes just got blinded by the light from cars that pass me over and over again....
That was the tiem when people fall neither rise oor rise and then fall to the ground.. it's hurt even more than anything... it's traumatic, it's tragedic.
Some fall followed by rise but sometime it just gets worst each inch it's falls.....

New guys in tha house.... Brian, Son of Briar and Kiki. With Champion bloodline in his body, it shows the he act, his behavior and all things he does. Right now he is 15 months old, never give of something.
One day, i was thinking how can i get a golden retriever male, since each of best bloodline will cost 10 millions rupiah. but never give up on my dreams, finally a friend offer me this fellow, i saw his bone, skull, eyes, the way he stand and how he behave, its quite great and perfect for me. Now my nana and olel has a boyfriend, hmmm... lucky brian since he got two girls in one pack.

Brian loves to play ball, tennis ball, soccer ball and a throwing stick. Catch and pitch, it's the game he play every noon before his dinner.
What he loves to do else is kissing, everyday i always got a kiss from this fellow man, and gees...man he got slimy fluid comes out of his mouth and trust me... its fun but disgusting.
Active, playfull and love children. Some how he always look at a child as his friend and ask them to play but as our community look at to a dog as a pierce animal, he got ignore even abandoned. As for myself, i don't have any child and all i can give him is a friend to play and as much love as i give to nana and olel.
Well, i will need 9 months to have him do his job as a man and for nana she has to wait for 9 more months so she can get what she wants from a man.
Wish me luck guys... and God Bless You All

Wassalam