Life is like box, full of parts that you need to fulfill. Not the box, but the part that need to confirm that you already there and do the thing that you need to do in life. That's why they said life just once, and do what you can while you still have time. Compete with time and chances, do you still have time or do you have the chance to get it.
Whether it will be a joyful, sadness, laugh, cry, love or hate, affection and desire, just got to fulfill all of it. You'll find out the limit or boundaries between it, when the time said enough, when the chances run out, or when you pass out, life just once.
I take all chances i got, even the chance is not exist, i create one. Fail or success is not a matter, the really matter is the process, process that guides you to get mature even more. Life just once, you get older thats for sure, but will you get mature, depends on you.
Life just once, grab anything you can reach, hold on to it, don't let go even the risk is yourlife. Let it flow when you feel you not suppose to be the one, let it go, even when you feel like the strongest feel you've ever have. Life just once, life just beauty and life is fair, you have one so you don't have to feel the sorrow too long or die twice, just once. And love just another part of life. life just Once.........

One of the moment that you will feel happy is the moment that you feel very free on what you are or who you are. Is it light or is it going to be hard, the option will be in your hand. I learned a lot by people around me, by put eyes on what they do and what they say. But is it possible to have people understand for what is in your attention? or is it going to be better if people do know that inside your head just another rubbish which just come and go like the wind blows. I saw many monsters, in form of many manifestations and possible that some of us just turned to be one. These monsters are eating each other, one way to another they eroded a shape of life. Then the future become an advance question to be answered by all of us, what will be become after this, some how we try to ignore it because we will say "it's nothing, we aren't suppose to think about it since we don't have to". Another justification on stupidity of human being. Then here we are, still walking on the same pattern of pathetic life, the life which bring us a disaster because of our own greed. I will say, i have enough but my life is not stop here. Then i said, let's carry on, well the life still asking where i want to go from here.
To many questions to ask but little answers to find out. Search for the better form of shape for being a human. The monsters still look around while their hands are grabbing lot lots of sources of life. No haze can stop them, no fire can burn them, no sins can fear them and there will be hell can remind them.
I have a monster live inside of me, a monster that wants to go out and get free. And i will come to other thoughts in my mind to get rid of this monster and i can have my life back as i want to.

Back to The Old Hobby

I heard that music can do lot of magical things to some people. Haha... did i say it right? Some say that music can kill you but music also brings you to live. I'm not an expert but i can do one or two keys with guitar. I just bought this Electric guitar, not so expensive but brand new and it has a great loud sound on the amplifier. Epiphone (Gibson brothers) haha... i can't reach that guitar since it will like killing me with the price.
So, i'm starting from zero again after years not play any good music (or i haven't play any)........
I have so many spare time, so many licks to play and so many music to hear. Wish i can play better...
And why i choose guitar? hmmm......i think it's pretty cool to play guitar and plus you can play where ever you want since i can bring the guitar anytime i want and anywhere i want. But not with these two ladies, they will remain home.

I might can't play as the other player, but i'm still happy the way i play... hahaha... for me music is about how you can be yourself and let it out by music....

that's all folks... enjoy the ride and play some good music or just here one......

end of the year

So, it's the end of the good year i guess, well i won't say anything bad for the process of live, it's kind a bad habit. I have a couple of good Golden Retriever, a nice old car, a couple of persian kittens and lot more friends, i have a good life but apparently i lost my job. Hiks... that's sucks don't you think.......
It is life, up and down, can't just stay at one point, always change and pass the time that won't stop for a bit moment of happiness.
i need to be more hard on my life, so be it.......

happy new year, when no body can ever guaranty how would life will be....

Rise and Fall

Call me freak, some of you might consider as it is. No body care about it, it just another call from other mouth or a person from south. Between the air, sometime you can feel the water flows just as ghost turn you to white while some kids just eat their ice cream... geesss.... you're patethic.
I'm on may way to a joyful field, always looks green and flat and some birds just claps their wings through the air.... hey just look what the heck they've done... they just kids you around while saying foolish man.
Above the sky, a window just opens and allows all wind drag the red ribbon.... dog's barking and the bird's singing. I took a slow walk through the alley, i saw green light just as bright as moon at night but seems like it just lightin' up the road i took. Feels not that free to walk but the alley almost end, even i could saw car full with daily traffic. And it was white light when i found lot of blood on my shirt and hands... it was not normal since i didn't remember what was going on. A woman came to me and saw me with strange eyes, seems like accused me for any crime did... life indeed free with eye look. I feel nothing and saw enpty space around my head.... my eyes just got blinded by the light from cars that pass me over and over again....
That was the tiem when people fall neither rise oor rise and then fall to the ground.. it's hurt even more than anything... it's traumatic, it's tragedic.
Some fall followed by rise but sometime it just gets worst each inch it's falls.....