Wise

Being myself is not that easy, especially when people see it from their own eyes.

Wisdom for a wish,

Don't Fix anything....

Stand Still and Silent

So I made my decision, i made my move and i'm still in the pilot of shit.
Powerless, weak, stupid.......

24 Hours

I made my mind that I won't go anywhere, I want to stay for the stage where I've been searched for many years.
I need to do what i need to do even sometimes it doesn't make sense that it will pointed to something real or something right. I believe in each stages of life, people will have to decide which will be the road for them to go. I need times, even time doesn't think that need me, time will keep run, no matter what condition I'm in. The time to make things better, time to have everything will be alright, the time that i need to make people understand why.
I'm sorry for what i've did, broken the vow, it was me, the need to settle down everything. Seems like never properly right when I'm still trapped in the condition of struggle to get out from the level that i made it myself.
Every one of us deserve to be happy, to live in the world full of colors, with every light and hope still move on accompanying each step of life. I understand that it might not towards any better condition, but to believe is more precious than anything.
Just like the highway, my feet is walking the step for home, home that i've never forgot for the last 5 years, home that I won't ever walk out, home where i can feel alive. Home to where i should be for the rest of my life.

Love to live that life......

Not Wasted at ALL

It was just once, and that was it, nothing happened again until couple of months ago.
That was the time when the British refused me to enter their beloved freakin' country, just another failure trip I guess, but i wasn't wasted at all. Well, at least i believe it so.
A guy, a friend of mine, he' called me to join them in this kind of training, which was the time that I didn't know what to do but to look for sort of activity, since I didn't want to get back to this full of sun and heat province.
So, I took this invitation to joint this training, which was no one invited me for this. An exodus from Riau. With stupid hat and dark burn skin, I took this "ojek" from the closes place where cars could reached.
I entered this room, no one I knew except 2 guys from Riau, and they just smile at me. I still didn't have any idea what the heck these people was talking about. I sit, right next to my friend and looked around. But then I stopped my head from moving around just to recognize who are these people. Long-sleeved white shirt, with glasses and short hair.

So, I was saying to myself "hmmmm.... who is that?"

For two days, just looked and looked, that was it, but that time was not wasted for nothing, lost confidence, a bit scared and just watching.

Well, its like another soap opera, just watching and watching......

I don't remember how did I get her number, its kinda magic, LOL, i supposed.