A poker night

a hate is something that could be a nice thing, to hate you need to recognize, to know, to understand and to feel. The hate will come when you define it as you not gonna do anything related, connected or even along with it.

so when hate shows up, its a gift, that you've been recognized by the one who hates you.

I want to change my life, to be a better person, as someone said "people needs to change and be better". I've made mistake and i know what i did and i'm not proud of it.

Right now, there is no intention of making a fool of anyone, of anything, for good. The await moment has come to and end, where i need to carry on my life, my path, my dream towards my end.

Where am I?

Like a quick sand, you think everything is okay, and you keep playing, and then a mistake happens, and again and again, and when you decide to quit, you can't, because you've already sink to your head, you can't move, you can't even breath.

I begin to hate myself again, I was making a mistake by taking a bad decision, but right now, I definitely don't know what to do.

Figuring out on what to do or where to go just taking a lot of my time, my life and my energy. I lost the soul to survive, I missed the air in the morning and I drawn in the mud of deepest hell.

I'm wasting all my money to make myself feel complete, feel please, and happy, but there just a hole wide open and even a dog could jump in and out everytime they play before my eyes. What kind of lesson should I taken again? what could be new experience will come to me? what will happen to me? when can I just fly away with the air I breath and swim in the water I touch.

I'm all alone, no where
I'm all alone and will be alone
I'm here but could not explain where
I'm exist but I can't see my feet step on the dirt
I'm lost.....

I'm a warrior of Seventh War
I fight on Seven Grounds
I stand in Seven Days
I bleed for Seven Hours
I may live once, but I will die Seven Times....

 

 

 

Am Free

Finally, after years with all of those burdens, today I am free.
I enjoy music more, I can play my guitar and understand more on each sounds.

The game, yes!! Fire in The Hole, is still the favorite only game. Haha... I am a kid in an adult body.

Let's play the role...

Bended Knee

I'm gonna swallow my pride
Say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don't ever let it go
You gotta believe in the spirit of love
It'll heal all things
It won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees begging you please
Come home