Reborn by Ramadhan

We are in the new page of life.

My friend, I hope you are doing fine with all greatness in you, and all successful life you'll get.

I'm sorry, from the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry.

Right now, I know why I'm here, is to be useful for my surroundings, useful for myself and my family.
There's nothing I would demand more than to live peacefully until the end of the call of my creator.

My friend, I see that you are changing the way you look, which I wish it also happens within your life and yourself inside.

My friend, be happy, for what you are and what you wanna be.

Dear Friend

I've been in silent for quite long, since I don't know how to deliver a proper apology to you.

My friend, never crossed my mind that I want to make a fool on you or anyone else, since that day I saw you, I knew that you are the one. Pretty strange since its not a fairy tail, not a drama on television or even a love story in a magazine, it was true.

Dear Friend, I always wish for the most perfect life for you and your future. To have a happy life, a life with no burden of feeling, especially the past. It just not for you to have that burden.

Its often for me thinking about to find you, face to face and just seeing you smile or even angry at me, for the past, but its not gonna possible as the hate already taking all part of the kindness in each of space in your heart.

Dear Friend, trust me, that you're a better person than me, much better.

Dear Friend, be happy, as I know I would be if you are........

Ding Dong Junky

I lay down on my bed and tv on with a program that I pretty much enjoy. I sit and lay again, and do that again and again and again. I'm not thinking, I'm not, at least not tonight, I was planning to close my eyes in the early hour.

Its been 3 days now, I have this sqeeze pain on my head. Its like killing me.

A poker night

a hate is something that could be a nice thing, to hate you need to recognize, to know, to understand and to feel. The hate will come when you define it as you not gonna do anything related, connected or even along with it.

so when hate shows up, its a gift, that you've been recognized by the one who hates you.

I want to change my life, to be a better person, as someone said "people needs to change and be better". I've made mistake and i know what i did and i'm not proud of it.

Right now, there is no intention of making a fool of anyone, of anything, for good. The await moment has come to and end, where i need to carry on my life, my path, my dream towards my end.

Where am I?

Like a quick sand, you think everything is okay, and you keep playing, and then a mistake happens, and again and again, and when you decide to quit, you can't, because you've already sink to your head, you can't move, you can't even breath.

I begin to hate myself again, I was making a mistake by taking a bad decision, but right now, I definitely don't know what to do.

Figuring out on what to do or where to go just taking a lot of my time, my life and my energy. I lost the soul to survive, I missed the air in the morning and I drawn in the mud of deepest hell.

I'm wasting all my money to make myself feel complete, feel please, and happy, but there just a hole wide open and even a dog could jump in and out everytime they play before my eyes. What kind of lesson should I taken again? what could be new experience will come to me? what will happen to me? when can I just fly away with the air I breath and swim in the water I touch.

I'm all alone, no where
I'm all alone and will be alone
I'm here but could not explain where
I'm exist but I can't see my feet step on the dirt
I'm lost.....

I'm a warrior of Seventh War
I fight on Seven Grounds
I stand in Seven Days
I bleed for Seven Hours
I may live once, but I will die Seven Times....

 

 

 

Am Free

Finally, after years with all of those burdens, today I am free.
I enjoy music more, I can play my guitar and understand more on each sounds.

The game, yes!! Fire in The Hole, is still the favorite only game. Haha... I am a kid in an adult body.

Let's play the role...

Bended Knee

I'm gonna swallow my pride
Say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don't ever let it go
You gotta believe in the spirit of love
It'll heal all things
It won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees begging you please
Come home

Runs Dry

Sean

Hey Sean, how many time I told you that life is responsibility
There is no such of getting free
Survive, to watch the manifest of the almighty
Among you, me and everybody

Hey Sean,
You gotta have a good heart,
You gotta keep it safe and right
Believe and put your head on the floor
Even when you fight it caused your fingers to four

Sean,
I trust the future in your hand
I am sure that its not gonna be white like sand
Could be dark or bright
But stick still on the good side

Sean...
You are the son that I've never had
But you have the spirit that I've dream at
Be the leader at least for yourself
And I'll be watching like I've never left

Take care Sean.....

Done

Its like a brilliant fantastic message. I was amazed with a billboard of a clear words on it, clear and straight message.

Well, I don't know or not remember exactly word per word of the bilboard says, but its like this, that person is gone mate, and wake up, carry on the life.

Then its a great thing, so I don't have to find out anything anymore, its been forgotten.

Cheers Mate,

Gotta Know

You gotta Know

Marking

Another time, different day, different year but the same flash of memories, not one but million of them, once schene to another, one part to the other. From the first step towards that door until the last time I saw the face of the most person who once I needed the most.
In this movie "Blind Side", was talking about a brilliant football player, Michael Oher, he has a very great gift, "forgetting the past". I wish that gift is like for everyone, just to forget and eradicate the regret which has to be like that as the reason to move on. It does not make any sense to memorize something or moments which not creating any different or even worse, its only happening in my side and not the other.

I realize that I need two things in this world, a chance to deliver how much I regret and then to forget.

To stop my brain for a while and to get rid all the thoughts for a while.