Apparently Useless....

Bryan the golden is still loyal and stay on my side, what he think just another meal in his bowl or another ball i threw. Words are not that meaning against my boy, he just remembered the sound for any demand. Sleep over the night and shake his tail every time he see me. What a dog.
I think i am his friend, at least that's how i consider Bryan. He needs me, the most important thing in my life, to be useful even for my pal, Bryan.
Useful or useless, in a very light differences between, when I need to be, that's how its gonna be, but what if I need to be but that's not what every one wanna be? I always think I'm selfish, the only thing that i want is to actualize what i have in mind, as a hope or just a dream.
I believe that every one is living for purpose, and that purpose will end up on something. But somehow we creates another, to have this life enjoyed and being someone that needed by someone else or something.
So, I wonder, when my time will come, for me to stop. well, i don't want to stop unless the wind asked to.

Its a fortune or its a destiny, your call.....

I'm done here......

Comes to an end where all chances gets to possibility of creation.

I was raised with the limitation of economic circumstances, which all needs became a dream that even a whole life hard working just another way to finish your life within the struggle to achieve it. I was survived by the jealousy of eyesight to any one that could relished their entire life with all treasury with them. Need more than just courage to built my own self confidence that all of those dreams just an abstract to live a life. That all things in this world is in a form of possibility.
Some parents will say that their children is the next generation of their kingdom, in my case that kingdom is about to built started with me, i have to build it by myself.
The opportunity came when my step was started in the whole new world when everyone is like put the self defense of me under their feet. And it is keep coming, again and again and again. And then i realized that this won't last forever, somehow this thing will have to stop, somewhere, sometimes, i don't know.

It began when i feel that all expectation was put on me, at least that was how i felt inside. I saw the tears almost everyday, i saw dreams of all in every corner in that house, i heard pray everyday, every minute for the better life, i was so scared, and I'm still afraid until now. The same question, "what can i do?"

Now I'm here, gets more than i remember expected, wanting more than i could imagined, need more than what i need the most. Between the daylight and dark of the night, along with the wind.

This is the note that will remind me, where ever i go and what ever my accomplishment, i will need that way back to the feeling of being free.

Thousands of Notes

The notes played with my guitar, its never been made before, just note by note picked and creates sound that sometimes couldn't be understood by the others. The notes are coming from the imagination and memories of a moment and flow with the blood to the brain and ordered the fingers to dance with the guitar's strings. Those notes keep the memories, its a like a mark to something that you would never want to forget. No words, just notes. No light, just the mind played with the memories.

Notes create music,

Keep it coming......

Green Hope

Blue, black, shine and rusty as the time has mentioned that there's nothing in this earth can stop its walk through the life.
I've been to many places on this earth, I've been experienced lots of unsatisfactory story of life, beaten, fall to pieces and also joyed the glories moment. I've been seeing people cried out, scream out loud or stand with proud.
I saw people puts hope to the life they've got, I saw sorrow took the others opportunity to raise and back. Fabric stretched like trying to make green grass eye. The eye that in a search for a beauty in life. I walked for a moment and read the circumstances which seemed to flare up like a raging flood, echoing like thunder and flamed like fire.
"Never give up on hope" i said, because I'm sure that hope is one of the sign that tells life is still continues.

Caution for Wildest Emotion

Manage the grave, and bury the sound of predictable trauma over the second stage of anger and madness. A previous syndrome within the process of natural signs. Enhance the consciousness when the walk has to stopped as the road rough. Imagine the great curiosity that leads to a huge desire which aim to reached something, something that not only crossed the mind but also live inside the heart, brain and even blood and gets to the bone.
Denial, refusal and even a positive of a negative proportional thoughts.
A need of perfection or just fill the empty space that suits to a complete pack of a perfect human being. Search methods or just live the life like it should be.

Longest miles.....

Bare Hands

its the wind blows, its the fire burns, and the will that disappeared. You melt in hope, you become one with dream.

A Long with the Wind

Another box is closed after final determination of absurd phenomenal friction of life. Another words are spoken by the empty handed of wounds. A sort of restlessness among the curious of thoughts which is starting kill the man in the middle or the animal above. Preservation or destruction that managed by the heart with big hole in the middle.

Nor wind or water can slap the panhandler to open his hand and hold his head while coffers of happiness were shed between his eyes and the ground, ground that full of dirt.

A master gunman stood alone, he is waiting for his destiny, while the rain is rumbling like a stone ruins in the mountain, he is waiting, another box or another faith or it just another stepped stone in his journey.

A single smoke burn between his 2 left fingers, and the bell rang right after the night almost full. The moment has come right on the undesirable situation. Away from the beginning, far from the truth and close to unconsciousness.

"Save yourself....!!!" he said, "Save yourself from your own desire and dreams"

Alive from the bottom of most powerful emotion of amazing creature called LOVE.