Monday, December 29, 2008

end of the year

So, it's the end of the good year i guess, well i won't say anything bad for the process of live, it's kind a bad habit. I have a couple of good Golden Retriever, a nice old car, a couple of persian kittens and lot more friends, i have a good life but apparently i lost my job. Hiks... that's sucks don't you think.......
It is life, up and down, can't just stay at one point, always change and pass the time that won't stop for a bit moment of happiness.

i need to be more hard on my life, so be it.......

happy new year, when no body can ever guaranty how would life will be....

Monday, September 22, 2008

Rise and Fall

Call me freak, some of you might consider as it is. No body care about it, it just another call from other mouth or a person from south. Between the air, sometime you can feel the water flows just as ghost turn you to white while some kids just eat their ice cream... geesss.... you're patethic.
I'm on may way to a joyful field, always looks green and flat and some birds just claps their wings through the air.... hey just look what the heck they've done... they just kids you around while saying foolish man.
Above the sky, a window just opens and allows all wind drag the red ribbon.... dog's barking and the bird's singing. I took a slow walk through the alley, i saw green light just as bright as moon at night but seems like it just lightin' up the road i took. Feels not that free to walk but the alley almost end, even i could saw car full with daily traffic. And it was white light when i found lot of blood on my shirt and hands... it was not normal since i didn't remember what was going on. A woman came to me and saw me with strange eyes, seems like accused me for any crime did... life indeed free with eye look. I feel nothing and saw enpty space around my head.... my eyes just got blinded by the light from cars that pass me over and over again....
That was the tiem when people fall neither rise oor rise and then fall to the ground.. it's hurt even more than anything... it's traumatic, it's tragedic.
Some fall followed by rise but sometime it just gets worst each inch it's falls.....

Monday, July 7, 2008

New guys in tha house.... Brian, Son of Briar and Kiki. With Champion bloodline in his body, it shows the he act, his behavior and all things he does. Right now he is 15 months old, never give of something.
One day, i was thinking how can i get a golden retriever male, since each of best bloodline will cost 10 millions rupiah. but never give up on my dreams, finally a friend offer me this fellow, i saw his bone, skull, eyes, the way he stand and how he behave, its quite great and perfect for me. Now my nana and olel has a boyfriend, hmmm... lucky brian since he got two girls in one pack.

Brian loves to play ball, tennis ball, soccer ball and a throwing stick. Catch and pitch, it's the game he play every noon before his dinner.
What he loves to do else is kissing, everyday i always got a kiss from this fellow man, and gees...man he got slimy fluid comes out of his mouth and trust me... its fun but disgusting.
Active, playfull and love children. Some how he always look at a child as his friend and ask them to play but as our community look at to a dog as a pierce animal, he got ignore even abandoned. As for myself, i don't have any child and all i can give him is a friend to play and as much love as i give to nana and olel.
Well, i will need 9 months to have him do his job as a man and for nana she has to wait for 9 more months so she can get what she wants from a man.
Wish me luck guys... and God Bless You All

Wassalam

Monday, May 26, 2008

About to celebrate first birthday

It's almost 8 months nana has stay with me and for olel its about 3 months... these girls are fantastic and always happy.... make me busy and dizzy instantly in the same time.
Some of time is full of happiness and some others filled by quite and tired. Energy explode when the dark has disappear from the sky above and will be over till the man said "Its enough for today".
Taking care of these girls is like an amazing experience, they can give you something that you can ever imagine... the loyalty and more important thing "Friendship", yes these girls are my girls and also my friends.
Next month will be the moment they will celebrate their first birthday, and i'll have the honor as their care taker, parent and also friends to celebrate this
moment with them. Thanks to my friend out there, the one who gave me chance to taking care of these girls. "Thanks man, you're my best friend and always be".
Say hello to my lovely Olel (Aurel).... she's friendly, curious, jealousy, and always looks pretty. Don't leave her behind you or she will be pissed. She always hear what i said and do what i ask her to do. She understands human's words. Something is changing here these lately days, she was not that active and full of energy when the first time she was arrived, but now... hmmm... she has this great energy, to run, to jump and play.. even she can follow me anywhere i go... she likes to jogging in the afternoon. she's the pretty's girls in tha house.....
Here we go again, meet my Nana (Avena), the strongest, biggest and smartest girl. She's the one that always makes me busy with here special attitude of retriever (chasing birds). Don't argue about energy, she's even stronger than a local male dog. She can bark loud and climb up your body whenever she feel secure to make friends with you.
So, these girls has bring a lot of joy and cheer up the day as always, act funny and ask for more love and attention. So, wish them healthy and happy
for their life in their first birthday, what i'm asking you guys.... and thank you very much.
Olel n Nana


Saturday, May 17, 2008

By letting big onpalm oil, Indonesia is destroying the environment, condemning many endangered species to extinction and gambling with the future of generation to come, according to Greenpeace.
By Albertus Weldison Nonto

The "DARKER SIDE" OF THE PALM INDUSTRY has recently been is exposed in an report, How to Palm Oil is Cooking the Climate.
The environmental group Greenpeace says burning and massive land clearing carried int he palm oil industry makes Indonesia the world's third largest country in carbon dioxide emissions behind th US and China.
It says well-sustantiated figures suggest 1,8 billion tons of greenhouse gases are released by degradation and burning of Indonesia's peat lands each year - equal to 4% of the planet's total emissions.
Environmentalists are alarmed by Indonesia's plan to increase the size of palm oil plantation to 20 million hectares from the current figures of about 7,3 million hectares. This is equal in size to Great Britain, Holland and Switzerland lumped together.
Greenpeace also says unchecked palm oil expansion could eventually lead tot he extinction of endangered species like the sumateran tiger, the orang utan and hundreds of smaller birds, fish and animals found only in the Indonesian Rain Forest.
It argues that the growth of plantations on peat lands increases gas emissions (GHG) as peat soils dry out, oxidize and in some cases burn.
It estimates that 10 million of Indonesia's 22 million hectares of peat lands are now marked for destruction in the path of palm oil.

Rising Conflict
According to local independent environmental organization Sawit Watch, social conflict between people dependent on the rainforest for their survival and plantation owners is escalating. More than 500 cases of conflict have been reported and figures are rising dramatically as more forest is destroyed.
Some of the world's major businesses are driving forces behind plantation expansion in Indonesia, with demand increasing and rising prices for essential food products like cooking oil.
Global giants like Nestle, Unilever, Cargill and Proctor and Gambel are among the end users of palm oil. They have organized the Roundtable on Sustainable Palm Oil (RSPO), an initiative chaired y Unilever.
These companies consume 40% of world CPO production. Unilever alone uses 1,2 million ton per year,most coming from Indonesia. This represents 3% of world CPO production.
Other multinationals, including : Gillete, Pringles, Philadelphia Cream, Cadbury and Burger King, are also complicit in the expansion of palm plantations in Indonesia.
In the past 50 years, 74 million hectares of forest have been destroyed, burned, degraded and pulped. A report by the United Nations on Environment Program last year says palm plantation expansion in Indonesia is among the major man-made causes of rainforest destruction in Indonesia.
Demand for palm oil is expected to double by the year 2030 and triple by 2050.

Sad record
Trading in Indonesian Palm Oil is dominated by big traders in Singapore. Cargil, a US company, is a major player along with the Indonesian- Malaysian alliance of ADM-Kuok-Wilmar-the world's biggest bio fuel producer. A Malaysian Government entity,Synergy Drive, also has major holdings in Indonesia.
Riau province in Sumatra is among the main locations for palm plantations in Indonesia = more than a quarter of the are under plantation is on peat land.
In figures released last year, 1,4 million hectare of land in Indonesia has been usurped by the palm industry . It is predicted that in the next decade half the province will covered with oil palm trees.


Players

Company/Group

Land Banks

(Hectares)

Planted Area

(Hectares)

CPO Productions

(in tones)

GlobeAsia ’07 Rich List

1.

Eka Tjipta Widjaja

GoldenAgri/SMART

1,300,000

359,732

1,967,092

#3

$3.1 Billion

2

Anthony Salim

Indofood Agri Resources

570,000

374,000

1,013,637

#4

$2.8 billion

3

Sukanto Tanoto

Asian Agri

515,000

170,000

710,000

#6

$1.3 billion

4

Martua Sitorus

Wilmar International

573,000



#12

$615 Million

5

Astra Agro Lestari

Astra International

500,000

238,000

920,000


6

Guthrie Bhd

Minamas Gemilang

288,000




7

Martias

Ciliandra Group

278,000

86,000

278,000


8

Aburizal Bakrie

Bakrie Sumatera Plantation

210,000

78,000

210,000

#8

$1.05 Billion

9

Teddy Rachmat and Benny Subianto

Tri Putra Agro Persada

200,000

120,000

220,000

#32

$320 Million

10

Liem Haryanto

Bumitama Gunajaya/Harita Group

200,000

50,000



11

Surya Darmadi

Duta Palma Group

200,000

54,000

190,000


12

Osbert Lyman

Lyman Agro

190,000

40,000


#23

$400 million

13

Putera Sampoerna

Sampoerna Agro

182,000

78,000

245,908

#5

$2.2 Billion

14

Gunawan Raya Family

Incasi Raya Group

174,000

36,000



15

Golden Hope (Malaysia)

Malaysia

170,000




16

Bachtiar Karim

Musim Mas

100,000

70,000

210,000

#51

$230 Million

17

Widarto and Santoso Winata

Tunas Baru Lampung

106,000

47,000


#101

$ 98 million

18

Susanto Lim

Sawitmas Group

105,000

47,000



19

Sipef Group

Belgian investment Group

52,000

30,000



20

Rowe Evans

Rowe evans

40,000

25,000



Tuesday, May 13, 2008

It's hard when you can't tell lie or hold your feeling inside. Every time you'll have bunch of thoughts in your mind and can't get it out... it's like a guilt feel or its like a giant water stream coming from the mountain and ready to hit you with all powers it has.
Human is a social creature and always connected to each otehr even to other factor of life in the mortal world.

This is new and this is hurt............

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Freak out..........................

To love or being loved, its a gift in our life, a gift that you can't even deny it.

How long a man could live? 50, 60 or you can live until 80 but not everyday you can feel the real love in your life time...... its not fair but who says life is a fair game for us to live...? its the way for us to feel the love that come and the way for us to survive when the love is taken from us....

This is the moment i want to say that the world has just stop for me in a moment, its the moment i feel like i'm in the end of my journey of searching and identifying. But then the world has to turn himself around again and i was running out of time and has to leave that moment until the time that i don't even know when....
So, now i'm sitting here and writing something stupid to be read by all you. You'll be get what it is all about if you've been there before or you'll be asking "Whatta fuck is this" if you've never been anywhere.....

I'll talk to you later....

Love you much.............................................

Sunday, May 4, 2008

No Pictures "Three Days"

Hey.....
This time it will be no pictures to describe or showing you anything.... just another short story from my short walk with my precious life.....
It was a beautiful moment in my life, the best three days in my entire life....
No one knows why, but when you found the something that you can't even explain what is it exactly, it just like another puzzle right in front of you. No need for any answers just have to follow the sign and the feel you got inside.
Wondering how can i get the moment again, the moment that i can't share you guys this time (i'm sorry, but this is private) and not even a single picture uploaded here. And you better trust me on this because i told you the truth.

Three days, i spent the days in happy and sad at the same time i have to pass it. Three days feels like nothing when i feel like i want more than just the three days.

I was totally free of charge to any obligation, just got to feel happy and being loved. Its the greatest three days i've been. Life is too short for us to regret or to let the precious moment gone, its not about desire but its about how to thankful for an opportunity of happiness in your lifetime.

I've been waiting for this for such a long time and finally i found it, i finally got the chance to feel it...

I wish i can go back to that moment and spend more days, i wish i can say i love the days i spent that time.....

I love you..... always be.......

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Jumpin' down or Crashing Out.....

What is the meaning of life...? when the truth is finally revealed, is it any matter...? what is the matter needs in life...? so many differences depend on how the mind's working or the way in living. For some reasons, some live just break anything in order to survive, don't ask why, because it's the way instinct of the animal works, is it works...? try it yourself.
Clapping hands like cheering something good or even laughing something funny or worst laughing for something which not even good or funny. Start thinking and turn your head around, what is it...? why...? what if..? such questions that nothing can be so sure for the answers... is it true...? I thought the life will be good as we expected since we work to establish anything that can give satisfaction to ourself. But once again, somebody was right, somebody who once say that Sometime you won't get anything that you want even you have reached it with all the best you can, i hate to admit it but this someone is right, it is the law of life, dynamic.... like a wheel, sometime you'll be up and the other time you'll be down.
So, the sun is about to roll down, spread all darkness and cold in the land of dirt. In the end of the road, everybody will stop, no matter by jumpin' down or even Crashing out, they will stop. The sun will set to someone and rise for the new life. For me, hmmm.... i don't know, i'm trying to live in normal life, which one of the normal life, well, that's extremely purified, hahaha.... empty spaces....
It's like singing a good song but not for your neighbor, because they hate your song but you still sing to it..... is that against the rule...? bullshit, there's no rules on singing a song that still carry on happiness in you, but please make sure that song won't contain any words that hurt people.....
Well, guys... if you read this one and you don't understand what is the meaning of all these shit words, don't worry and don't ask me because i don't know it my self. It just whispered to me through my ear and my finger just type it like crazy... it's not words, it's a scream, cry, beg and spirit to survive........
Don't hate the player, but hate the game......

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Aurel Della Concetta

Aurel Della Concetta or often called with OLEL, it's like a child tongue on words they mentioned. Olel is nana's sister, same sire (father) and Dam (mother). Olel was sent to me on 6 March.
It was in the evening when their previous owner called me, and asked me to taking care of Olel. This guy is a friend of mine, he owns concetta kennel in Jogja. He is a nice guy and great man since he can raise many of Golden Retrievers and even breed them.
I was surprised, because i was about to add one more Golden to stay with me and the good thing was that the addition one (Olel) is still nana's sister.
Olel has this nice behavior as a bitch, not like nana, nana is getting bigger and has terrible manner and its getting worst when olel came to stay with us. Jealous and try to dominate all attention they can get, and nana is the best to do that.
Nana is trying to be an alpha dog, leader of dogs in her area. And olel is trying to be a nice little girl and still trying to get to know all new neighborhood. Olel is very close to me since the first time she was arrived. She's trying to get to know me right after i opened the kennel box. she just looked at me and then sat down with exhausted body after couple of hours flight.
With her good appetite, i don't get any problem about feeding her and olel influence nana to be like her about eat. Nana is motivated to eat much and has this new energy. This is obvious, even a person can lost their spirit when they found an empty environment.
So, now i have two dogs (bitches) live with me. these dogs is my children, they are a very loyal dogs. Well, i hope i can have a male or two also to accompany my girls here. But it will take more than i can imagine to buy a male Golden Retriever, not mentioned if the dog is from the champion kennel, hmmm it will like killing in the name of..........
And wish me luck guys, and please.... be here with me since i have this dogs, who knows you might interesting to this breed also.
Keep out of problem and stay safe in one piece........ Kiitos............

Monday, January 28, 2008

Nana (Avena Della Concetta)

Just as it wrote up there, that is what it name? Avena, and she called nana. Born 29 June 2007 at Yogyakarta, what a nice place to get birth. Somehow, currently Nana in Pekanbaru and lives with me. She's being a good dog and also friendly. Always has this strange stamina to play with plastic bottle, shoes, woods and even play run and chase. But when she gets tired or worst get bored, hmmm... Nap will be the answer or just sit in front of the fan. Make her body cool and relax.
What nana will do after breakfast...? sit out side and hold her shoe, and waiting and watching any cats might come past her face.
Freak....!!! this friend i have, she has a big body with her age that only 7 months old. I have no problem at all by keeping Nana with me, beside i can talk to her (in different language of course....!!!!) she also share some happiness, by her act, running and chasing something that we don't know what or even barking to some direction which when we saw through it, its nothing but an empty space and only wind the thing we can feel. Everyone likes nana, she's definitely friendly dog just like her master A FRIENDLY MAN...... hahahahha

Chao....

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Uncle Bob always charms everyone who listen to his music, lyrics and even his style of playing and sing the music. Call for freedom, love, desire, hope and trigs some invincible spirit around the corner of big wall. Get up...stand up...stand up for your life...!!! what a provocative words, words that spelled so clearly and remain in you ears and mind. Move your body and head, get some beers and hale your cigarette, you'll fly, imagining the love when he asked you "is this love...?". I wanna love you and threat you right, like a fantastic promise, and share the shelter and room, being a soulmate in your period of life. Feel everything while you still breath, do anything while you still have chance.
Bob was the same man like others who crying for independences of life, carrying out everything he knew with lyrics and sang it loud and clear to every one in this world in his life time until now. More and more people is listening to his song. Charismatic after death, i doubt it, its the words that call to encourage, its music that shake the soul of rage.
Don't worry, about the thing, cause every little thing is going to be alright. Rise up this morning, smile with the rising sun. Welcome to the world which combine reality and cover it with most beautiful song.
So, just sing the song and let yourself free....

Bless you... and get yourself out of trouble...especially the law...

Namaste.......

Friday, January 11, 2008

2008

Hey...hey.....2008, what could be different from the past years? Dreams are still coming up with all desire to be better when to step enter the new era. But still, what does the billboard say? Come on Play, Come on Play, forget about the movement.....
get your ass up and stand with your feet and try to move harder and longer than you've ever been. Fight still carry on until the very last end of blood you have in your body, until the last memory in your mind fading with all thoughts that you will think its a concept of life. What a fool to become a better man if you just sitting around and not try to make any different on the nail right below your leg.
Land wont be wait for any farmers because heavy equipment has been set up to take care all trees in the landscape of no man.
People, move and fight for your freedom, for your rights and fight for yourself. Be an individuals, because you'll need it anyway.
It's totally bullshit when the Black Suit Men come to your door and say you'll be protected from any harm and poverty. You gotta do what you gotta do, when the wind comes to you and join their comrades with rain and then become stronger storm, you just terrified and think to survive, be that wind and make them terrified and kill all the devil on the run. You have your life and your life is yours..

Adios Amigo.....